I was five When my grandmother took me on a walk During jacaranda season. Soft lavender snow drifted across the path, Like a purple carpet.
We sat under a tree, Its branches formed a violet shelter, The musky, honey-like fragrance of the blossoms enveloped My grandma’s laughter, as I showed her How to make a kebab of jacarandas on a stick.
Then she patted my head, But her ebony black eyes serious, tender Around the edges, when she looked at me. “Be a good daughter.”
I just nodded, hoping I’d understand Someday, When I’m taller. I went back to add more flowers On my stick.
Each spring, The jacarandas return, I look to them. My grandma’s words land on my shoulder, Like the purple petals.
Each Facetime call ends the same way, Never goodbye, Just “Be a good daughter.”
Each year I thought I knew what it meant. Be obedient, be quiet, be good.
And each year, I swatted it away, Like an annoying, persistent fly. Because I thought it meant giving myself up, Giving my voice up, To be someone else.
Last spring, My mum told me she needed surgery. She asked when we should return to China, Summer holidays in December, Or April break.
The April break was warmer and shorter, I didn’t want to give up summer. I didn’t want to stay inside, Watching snowstorms rage outside the window. When I asked her, “How long will you take to recover?” “I’ll be fine, don’t worry about me.” She smiled. But I saw the dark rings under her eyes,
Her pale skin. How even the shine in her hair looked dull.
My answer pressed on the tip of my tongue, But I swallowed it. “Let’s go back in December. It’s been a long time Since I built a snowman.” I decided.
But I chose December, Because I knew she needed time to recover, Because I knew her health was important, More important than my summer.
The next morning, I nearly walked into a spider’s web, Morning dew hung from her trap, Like jewels, glistening in the sun. But that’s when I realised the small, violet bud, Peeking shyly from under a leaf.
“Be a good daughter.” I hear my grandmother say. Maybe it’s finally time to understand That it’s about choosing love, Even through sacrifice.
Not giving up your voice, But learning how to use it. Not giving up who you are, But learning to consider others.
It’s always exciting when we have new young voices send in their poetry. This month, keep a look out for 13 year old Zoe Yuan’s poetry. Her two poems feature Chinese culture, family and traditions. They are beautifully written straight from the heart and she will be a young poet to watch out for in the future.
And it’s time for new prompts too! Email your August poems to ozchildrenspoetry@gmail.com and don’t forget, if you attach an image to accompany the poem please include the URL so we can link back to the owner and give proper attribution.
Here are some of the celebrations in August: International Day of World’s Indigenous Peoples, International Youth Day, Obon Festival, Indian Independence Day, National Science Week and of course CBCA Book Week!
Lake Pamamaroo, Menindee. Photo by Ginette Pestana
Teacher’s note: Nine mainly shallow lakes make up the Menindee Lakes on the Darling River in New South Wales. Menindee was the first town established on the Darling, on the lands of the Barkindji people. The nearest major city is Broken Hill.